waiting and counting

sometimes, we cant be the good person at most time. we have to be evil, bad and cruel at times but with good intention.

i think i become a bad person this time around but bare in mind is for a good sake. c'mmon who want to see their friends cry and cant do anything. like they always say prevent better than cure. =)

i have done my part as a friend.

as a friend, i gave you advises

as a friend, i'm there when you need me

as a friend, i'm there to listen to you

as a friend, i help you

as a friend, i dont want to see you sad

as a friend, i give you shield from getting hurt

i do whatever i can to make sure that you are not lost and get yourself hurt. i;ve been thru these, and it is not easy as you playing with your toys. when you feel like playing u take it out..and whn you dont you dump it aside.

maybe rite now u think i'm a bad person for..you know why. i'm not supporting you so i guess it's normal to think like this and get a distance frm me. but please bare it mind, which friends wana see thier own friends get hurt.

i told you dont know how many f*cking times that i dont want to see you get hurt. but i forget the choice is always yours. you can choose to listen or not. or you can choose to get hurt. all up to you.

i know i'm a bad person now. yea...
and at this moment, i choose to be silence, see nth, hear nth and whichever wont make me geram. now, i'm speechless and i got nth to say. carry on and have your fun.

glad

i really dont know why whenever i'm drunk or sober, i will surely call my ex. i really dont know why. today i kinda sober a little but i didnt call him
but we did chat online.

somehow or rather, i love talking to him. i dont know why. eveytime i talked to him i feel relieved. although most of the time he would just '' perli'' me but at the same time he knows me best. =)
i dont know why suddenly i asked him a Ques i wanted to know for so long, tears roll down frm my eyes whn he replied me. n not tears of sadness but joyfulness. i'm glad.

to fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life already three parts dead

am i already dead?

heart broken

at the beginning, i already said i'm scared, fears and etc to fall in love or maybe perhaps crush on someone.

and right now, i think i got crashed again. this time. but thankfully not that harsh. cause i DID took some precaution. i guess i need to learn more before i fall in love. and from today onwards, 4th January 2009, 1020pm, I, WENDY YEAP will never fall in love so easily anymore. or maybe i should say would nvr love again.

i'm so sad now. really sad. disappointed. crashed. i hate guys.!!!!!! i hate them. they always makes the gal fall but with no intention to catch them.

IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME LET ME KNOW, IF NOT PLEASE GENTLY RELEASE ME

2009

omg..a year passed again...and a whole new year starting now. hmmmm..let me see what have i done over the last year.

1. enter my final year
2. met a nice bunch of friends
3. karaoke, eat and ponteng session
4. clubbing
5. going for trips
6. crush on someone
7. flirt
8. assignments
9. met new people
10. last but not least, finally found someone.

last night had my countdown with my kawans at gurney. we wanted to go QE2 at the beginning, but because of some ''technical'' problem we ended up at gurney. well...i still have my fun there but of cuz i hope to spent the night together with you.
i could not ask for more but u did gave me a memorable xmas eve.

excuses

i remembered that after i broke up, love songs with would be my all time favorite just to make myself cry. i guess this was one of the way to make us feel better or heal the soul of the terrible break up.

i always tell myself that time heals. but how long it will take we will never know. but i definitely knows that I've climbed up again and we are now still good friends. i still buy him souvenirs when i go for holiday.

after countless of sleep, drunk and tears, i am getting stronger a little. so after being single for not very long, flirting here and there for so long, finally i found someone who is not bad. met all the criteria i want. hahahaha...

being in love is fun but the waiting period is the hardest.

scared

just like i once been told that, never ever put all our feelings in the relationship as we might get hurt ourselves. so i always keep this in mind.

today he talk to about this stuff. so basically he also dont want to get hurt. i understand. so in conclusion, both of us scared. sigh.